multiple determination and will power

LivingAfterWLS reader feedback showed that eating snacks is the biggest problem, people undergoing gastric shunt after -- the problem is we eat the unhealthy items, we damage our lose or maintain weight and we spiral back to self-loathing, so much a kind of emotion of morbid obesity. None of us expected to enter operation into a "who lost all the weight and back."No one expects to be slipped into operation.We believe we can defeat the obesity and our "tool", we all want to become healthier, more active, I dare say is more attractive, more happy and massive fruta planta weight loss after WLS. So why are we so hard to beat the system? Abuse this tool?
I spend a lot of time in reading personal diary since I have been losing weight after the operation, I found some interesting things on my own and I eat junk food.Have a look these sounds familiar to you: 5 is a trigger, snack time, because I have a school grew up snacks (hungry or not), when I arrived home at night from my adult work I become a school boy and I want / need / want me "after school snacks." -- when I choose healthy high protein, low fat, low carbohydrate snacks, I am very satisfied, pleased with himself.These snacks include cottage cheese, a hard boiled eggs, cooked Turkey, sugar-free gelatin, beef jerky, almond. -- usually I choose soft food snacks: biscuits, dried RitzBitz, wheaten bread and peanut butter, and worst of all, Nutter butter cookies.When I'm in these snacks does not satisfy me, I feel I become slow, self loathing.I risk dumping. most of my snack done in secret -- I bought a package from a convenience store and eat it in private; never on my desk, never in front of my family.This covert behavior reminiscent of WLS days, make me feel sick."Who the hell are you hiding?" I asked myself in an entry. it never thought I eat carrots or apple slice or berries, oh no! I have to convince myself, rough stuff will only break my tiny stomach."No," I said in my, shook his head and multiple determination and will power. My entry -- lasts about eating snacks or self-loathing that full of negative self talk like "eat mindlessly, and", "nervous today eat snacks", "accidentally ate a box of animal crackers, never tasted, then ill: I am an idiot", "I am in my face shoving food like a junkyard dog -- how ugly, looks like a", "I made a stupid food choice today will eat chocolate cake with icing and dumping; like I want to punish myself and I do." if I see the scale to rise I panic, I then snack -- is almost I send a message "this (fruta planta weight loss) is good be hardly worthy of belief, better hurry and defeat yourself." Sometimes I snack -- just because it's there -- just before the operation.